Scribbles in the Dark

i'm a bit tipsy. like... equilibrium. but also drunk! spelling is hard. and we watched moulin rouge. balance all gone!!!!!!! things move more than i move them. i move this much, and then everything else moves THIS much. a lot. everywhere. falling over. i had smirnoff. it's tasty. backspace. dizzy bits. preston's playing....... that game. with the cars. and girls in bikinis with guns. ? i think. and motorin'. um. jim's here. but he didn't finish watching the movie with me because he was making eggs on toast. not on the toast. they were in the toast. but i wasn't hungry. so he ate them. essen. fressen!!! yum. there's not a g in motoring. um. i may go to bed now. i need a wall though. walls are nice they stand up. lots. yeah.

yeah. okay.

mm, it's been a good few days. right now i have a nice balance of work and relaxation time going- which will get messed up pretty soon when i start summer classes, but- eh, you can't have everything.

we went to see iron man last night- so now i understand why sarah twice blew off studying the night before a final exam to see this movie- it's pretty awesome. thank god marvel isn't renting out their license anymore! *lol* it's a lot like the ultimates verse, actually- which makes sense, as both were started in roughly the same real-life period, so the political background and technological imagination of each is about on par with the other. although after seeing the movie i have a whole new appreciation for pepper- she's awesome!!! i loved the vibe between her and tony in the movie- it was incredibly dynamic and realistic and, just, wow. that's one thing that isn't in the ultimates comics- there's much more of a tony/thor relationship there, though. but- nick fury!!! we sat through the credits for a five-second scene with tony and general fury (5 seconds, guys, seriously- give us a bit more?) but it heavily implied good things to come. thor! thor is good things! *grins*

so that's enough about iron man. i took jess for a jog this morning- caitlin's dog, not my sister- and realized how much i miss my friday morning workouts. it's not like i was being super-exercise-girl or anything, just an hour or so once a week, but i missed that tight panty feeling in my chest that tells me my heart is pounding and i'm out of breath. it feels good; it's kind of a zen place for me. (what i could do without is the burn in my legs afterwards. *eyeroll*) so instead of going to church this morning (i woke up too late- bah!) i went for a jog. just as satisfying, if in different ways.

i got my grades for the semester- mostly a's and b's, but i got a c+ in studio, which absolutely killed my gpa for the semester, and i'm pretty sure my professor did it out of spite. well, not spite, because he's not a malicious guy. he just... doesn't grade so much on the merit of your work as on the merit of your personality, and i was kind of bitter and frustrated the last few weeks of studio. obviously my grade reflected this in the drop of an entire letter. despite my bitterness, i did my best to present the project in the way that he wanted me to, but obviously that wasn't enough. griff is a pretty superficial grader- he only glances at your final project, and bases his grade partly on that single impression and partly on what he remembers of your design process over the past weeks. and he also has a particular presentation style, so you can have amazing drawings, but if they don't fit his style, he'll still fail you.

that's kind of messed up.

in a few hours i need to call my mom, ask her about last year's taxes for my fafsa. stupid federal laws- just because my mom is alive, i'm younger than 21, and i'm not married yet, that doesn't mean she can afford to pay for my college tuition. losers. *grumbles*

jim is in chicago, and then back until next weekend before he's off to montana for the summer. i miss him!!!! but he's having lots of fun and keeping super-busy. also- chicago. i do not begrudge him this. *grin* so i asked off work to go to houston for a few days to visit him over memorial weekend. and i think that's the same work-week as a-kon. not sure. i may have traded in a shift to see jim for a shift on a-kon weekend.... but i'm okay with that. ^/___^ we'll see how it goes.

i can't wait for the next temeraire book!!! astolat hasn't been doing as much with fanfics lately, which could have any number of reasons but which i hopefully take to mean that a new book will come soon. i don't stalk her journal like cait does, so i guess i'm kind of out of the loop on this one. *shrugs* i got jim to reading them though, which is super-cool. but imo, it doesn't matter what she's doing- whether she's into a new fandom, or writing a book, or working on a super-long fic, whatever- because either way i'll get to read it, and her work is always great. ....so maybe that is kind of stalker-ish. drats.

well, i need to eat something sometime today, so i'm gonna go do that. mmm, food..... yum. this is why i'm dating a foodie.

heee, look what jim found!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q6g0pnXdNJ8&feature=related

when youtube is cooperating i'll get the actual link to that posted here instead.

amusement!!!! vast amusement!

my brain hurts so much right now.

this weekend is going to kill me.


arch history test, monday at 10am (cramming SO much)
pols paper, due monday at 11am (research? i have to do that?)
arch studio: final-quality drawings due monday at 1pm (hate hate hate)
arch drafting: project #3 due in one week (well, screw THAT)

going to jim's house for a few hours tomorrow. it'll be a nice change of scenery for me, and i wanna say hi to his family, too. they're kinda my surrogate family- his mom always says she loves me more than him. *eyeroll* but i don't mind. i loves me mah boy.... *happy sigh* i feel bad for sara, tho- her bf's birthday is sometime soon (saturday?) and his family is having a big party to celebrate. sara pretty much has to go (dating = part of the family) but she has just as much on her plate as i do. it's a big family deal, too; all the quints have the same birthday (duh) and their dad's bday is the next day or something, so they all celebrate at once. their older sister jaren is even flying in from california with her fiancee to come see them for their birthdays- it's a big deal.

but we definitely don't have time to do anything but work. i should be reviewing for my history exam, but my brain is so burnt right now. i would make a computer metaphor, but i seriously don't have the mental power at the moment. -____-

life sucks so much right now. *headdesk*

managed to get to campus without loosing anything!!! yay!!! i just checked and i have all my boxes and bags that were on my list. but the drive still took forever. i hate moving. >___<

but! rather than unpack (which i still haven't done) i went to my first college party last night. *facepalm* well, first official college party, as i don't think the honors ball or hallowe'en party count. i was dd (a designated driver) so i didn't drink, but for reference, my friend sara had: a margarita, half a strawberry daquiri, half a smearnof, half a shiner, and most of a miller chill. she's a hard liquor and wine kind of girl, so they weren't doing much for her, which was upsetting because she'd just crashed her car the day after her birthday and really wanted to get drunk. woobie sara.... and jim was there- actually i came as his guest, and he came as a guest of rhys, who was the only actual honors retreat counselor there, at the honors retreat counselors' party. *lol* but since i was driving him, he helped himself to the other half of sara's smearnof and shiner, a margarita and 3 daquiris. and maybe there was some more in there that i didn't see. he was a bi~it tipsy! but he's a cute drunk (sara's a floppy drunk, and apparently kathryn is a funny drunk, though i haven't seen it).

so, it was cool, i actually had a good time chilling on the couch with a 7up chatting with the girls, and i wouldn't mind repeating the experience. *amazed*

anyway, now i have to unpack. yuck. chari and i are kind of living in limbo because we only have one desk chair, no pegs to bunk the beds, no fridge or tv or microwave since chari left them at home, and no space to open up the bookshelf. joy. and classes start tomorrow!!! *weeps* i had a nice, lazy sunday morning, went to catholic mass and ended up joining the choir, and now i have to unpack everything.... -_____-' ah, well.

things missing from last semester (most likely in the box that i lost coming home last spring):

spot the cpu
heels i bought at macy's for the honors ball
blue and green fleece blankets

i miss my boy.... i wish college would get here faster, somehow.....

but at the same time i'm having a great time at home, too. nee-san and i took the mutt to agility early this morning, and we went with bri to lunch at zen. and i went shopping with my mom, and she bought my a jacket that i've been craving for a month.


....but that doesn't make me miss everything about college any less. *mopes*

it must be the weekend, then!

i just took an hour nap, trying to stay awake to read frickin jean-jacques rousseau. and i can't spell his name anyway. grr..... i hardly ever encounter a book that i have trouble comprehending. not focusing i've had and struglled with and (mostly) beat, but this time i actually find myself getting to the end of the paragraph and realizing that i have absolutely no clue what the heck the guy just said. that's kinda weird, and it's really bloody annoying. i'm on page 80 of 137, which is decent, except i have a paper due on this sucker on like monday or tuesday. *seppuku* so i'm determined to finish it tonight.

i'm in jim's room- have been for pretty much the whole weekend since yesterday afternoon, with a few exceptions, like to eat or go to my soccer game or when he exploded the vacuum and i couldn't breathe. (now it just smells like fabreeze in here. *sniggers* i teased him SO much about it....) it's alright- i've mostly been working, and he ought to be (*eyeroll*), so it's not like quality boy-time, but still.... anyway, right now he's sleeping for a bit, and i have like four hours of reading yet to do still... *mopes* we may watch a movie later.

gack! i found all three lotr movies at walmart for 7.50 a piece!!!! we were in the checkout line before i could make myself put them back. *exasperated* i'm so horrible.

i'm adding the complete hp sereies in paperback to my wishlist. all i have is the third and fourth in hardcover. man, everyone and their brother is gonna get jossed come july. *sigh* that's so depressing! but i'm depending on jkr to leave the ending after book 7 open, so we poor fanfic writers can still thrive on something!!! (i hope...)

well, i absolutely can't avoid my dead philosopher anymore, so.... ta.

i'm cleaning. yech. mom decided that since jim is coming over tomorrow (yay!!!) that we may as well get some spring cleaning done before-hand. (normally it would have been spread out over spring break.) so i've been cleaning all day, and most of the weekend as well.

(i'm horribly bad about long jobs. i have to go away from them after awhile to do something else, or i just sit there and stare at them for a long time being unproductive. mom doesn't understand how this works when i can be in studio for 27 hours solid, but in studio you're never doing the same thing for very long; the projects all have little parts to build and fit together, so i'm not doing the same exact thing for hours at a time. it's different.)

so i'm all dusty and sneezey and my hands are dry and scratchy from being washed so many times. but i like cleaning, generally speaking. it's very... liberating. i can zone out while i work, and i get that nice fuzzy feeling of accomplishment afterwards. ^/_____^

the hassel is that my mom has finally got around to painting, and she started with the downstairs bathroom, so the door is off the hinges and there's tape around everything and it's half-painted, and jim is going to be here tomorrow. *huffs* ah, well. it'll be fine. but there's all kinds of stuff to do yet; it's funny how that happens- you get in a frenzy and all that stuff you've been putting off finally gets done, and everything looks and feels so much better. heh. cleaning wisdom. i'm so weird. *eyeroll*

so, back to work.... ta!

ps- the rodeo was awesome. that was this time last week, in houston, at reliant stadium. there were carnival rides, and pig races, and art contests, and yummy food, and roping and riding competitions. *psuedo-clueless* oh, and there was this singer guy... oh, i can't possibly remember his name... could it be josh turner? *grins* country music concert after the rodeo= frickin awesome!!! my second concert ever, and very very cool. ^/___^

kiza is a wonderful, wonderful goddess!!!!!! *squee*

i have a project due tomorrow in studio, and i can't do it during the day b/c i have class pretty much solid from 9am onwards. and i could be working on it right now, except i figured out that if i photocopy the plans i have at 250% then i can just trace the whole thing out in like ten minutes flat, rather than the two-plus hours it would take me to work out each individual dimension. so i think: bugger that! but the library copier only goes to like 114%, and besides which they closed, and i have no clue where the nearest kinko's is. so i'm destined to hours and hours of extra work. but wonderful, wonderful kiza works in the records room upstairs, and they have a copier, and she has a key. she said that when she gets back on campus later tonight, she'll open up the room and let me use the copier. joy!!! rapture!!!! excellence!!! squee!!!!!!!!!

^/____^

so now i'm in jim's room, watching him and preston play super smash bros and beat the proverbial crap out of each other. it's nice..... i haven't seen jim all day, but he came and sat with me in studio for a few minutes and it really cheered me up. i could finally focus on my work, and that's when i really started understanding all that crap kirkland had been saying about scales and stuff during class. too bad i didn't get that, say, three or four hours ago. *eyeroll*

so my day is looking up. the boys are doing free-running around campus later tonight- there will be photos up on facebook later, for those interested. *grin* i have to be there to make sure that if one of them cracks their skull, they get to the hospital before they bleed out. but if they do, they are totally not getting flowers or cookies for like the first week.

alright, i have to get back to work in studio in about ten minutes, but squeee i have free time soon!!!! thanksgiving break begins tomorrow at 6pm for me- omgwtfyay!?!?!! well, actually not, b/c i have a paper to write, and also we have a project assigned in studio that has to be done w/ my parallel bar (which is drilled and padlocked into my drafting table, which i also need) and is due on monday after break. i'm gonna be a 3.5 hr (minimum) drive away from studio from tuesday night until sunday night. this project is SO not happening. *frustration* and i'm not the only one, either. it's so despicable..... so i'm trying to get as much done as possible, but i dunno how that'll work, since i have to sleep as much as possible tonight so that i won't be tired driving tomorrow.... argh!!!

anyway, this weekend rocked. went to renfest saturday for about six hours, after locking my keys and my bag and everything except my wallet inmy truck- oh boy was that SO fun, but not really. *eyeroll* sheer stupidity on my part, thankyouverymuch. but renfest was pretty fun- i got a puzzle ring (my new toy; it's so entertaining!!!) and two pairs of wrap pants (the pretties..... pet them..... *purrrrr*) and the weather was fantastic. yay!!! and yesterday i went w/ jim to his house, since it was his mom's bday on saturday but he missed it. so she made us an early dinner, and then we played video games (me and jim vs. jenny-his sister- and his mom) and watched cars. that movie is GREAT!!! i've seen two movies recently, actually (which is pretty abnormal for me), cause we went to see the new james bond movie 'casino royale' thursday at midnight/friday when it came out. long, but so amazing. that car!!!!!!! no spoilers, but OH that poor car...... and i want to go see 'happy feet' too. dennise has seen it twice now; i'm so envious!

so i've actually been doing stuff other than studio this weekend, and it felt wonderful, until monday morning rolled around and i had another plan/shadow sketch of my cube project to do, graphite pencil on 1000/white vellum, and i'm at least semi-allergic to graphite. plughie!!!! but i really wish we'd gotten at least one or two days for a break after turning in the model of our cube project, it's so uncool to have to jump right back into working after the suicide that was last weekend. *fury* i need a little free-time, people.... and hey, wasn't that the subject of this post? yeah, jenny actually has no free time at all, and it sucks. *glares*

so, i have to go back to work now. toodles.....