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so..... as of roughly 3am today i'm 20 years old. yay?
i don't really feel much different- i stopped being excited about my birthday in high school. it's always been a muted affair for me, except my golden birthday, because i have a summer birthday, you know? i never had many friends around to celebrate with, and not enough people acknowledge the use of half-birthdays for that to be worthwhile. so as a kid i didn't do much. and i think, after about 7th grade, i just stopped caring about it as much. it's still, y'know, the day i was born, which is kind of cool to think about, but i stopped expecting big things. this year i practically forgot that it was happening, and i wouldn't have even known it was today except that people kept reminding me.
and i'll admit, it's not something that i completely disregard. celebrating birthdays is part of my culture, so i'm aware that my birthday is approaching and in the back of my mind there's always that feeling of, 'hey, it's my birthday, i should do something special'. so i'm not a total weirdo about it, i guess.
but i'm no longer a teenager, and that does feel different. it's about the only thing that turning 20 gets you- second most useless birthday among the ones that are worth counting, imo- you're not a teenager anymore, which really does make a difference in how people think about you. and, i guess, in how i think about myself, when i consider my age as a factor. it's one less excuse to have at my disposal for having fun and relaxing and stuff.
bummer.
i don't really feel much different- i stopped being excited about my birthday in high school. it's always been a muted affair for me, except my golden birthday, because i have a summer birthday, you know? i never had many friends around to celebrate with, and not enough people acknowledge the use of half-birthdays for that to be worthwhile. so as a kid i didn't do much. and i think, after about 7th grade, i just stopped caring about it as much. it's still, y'know, the day i was born, which is kind of cool to think about, but i stopped expecting big things. this year i practically forgot that it was happening, and i wouldn't have even known it was today except that people kept reminding me.
and i'll admit, it's not something that i completely disregard. celebrating birthdays is part of my culture, so i'm aware that my birthday is approaching and in the back of my mind there's always that feeling of, 'hey, it's my birthday, i should do something special'. so i'm not a total weirdo about it, i guess.
but i'm no longer a teenager, and that does feel different. it's about the only thing that turning 20 gets you- second most useless birthday among the ones that are worth counting, imo- you're not a teenager anymore, which really does make a difference in how people think about you. and, i guess, in how i think about myself, when i consider my age as a factor. it's one less excuse to have at my disposal for having fun and relaxing and stuff.
bummer.
